Circumstances

Do you think that when you're faced with a certain set of circumstances, you end up having to decide whether or not the circumstances that you are in would go your way or not.

I have been many a time been faced with very surprising circumstances, and while most of my decisions have been thoughtfully planned out, some i let slip and lo and behold, the end result is never how I would envision it to be.

Can you go back on some of the decisions you make? Or do you just live with what has transpired from those decisions you made based on the circumstances you were in?

Ambiguity in such situations can only lead to confusion hence my preference for outright-blunt-in-your-face information because then at least we won't be making decisions based on assumptions. We assume too much sometimes thus resulting in misunderstandings. I guess this is where the German side of me comes out in which all possible information is laid bare and out in the open for your taking just so things have been cleared up, and decisions then can be made on the most reasonable level.

Then again, wouldn't it just take the fun out of making decisions altogether? After all, many decisions, like in experiments, are based on assumptions and therefore would then mean accidents might or might not happen and voila, a new discovery! I guess my rationality does play a huge part on why my decisions are always made as such.

However, that only applies in my work. When it comes to matters of the heart, I apply a whole different set of rules. Well maybe not entirely different from that for work but nonetheless slightly different. My heart does the talking and I blame myself for allowing my heart to lead me astray one too many a time. Yet, I'm a romantic at heart, a sucker for the romantic gestures, the caring, the giggling, the whole jazz. And despite how many heart aches I endure, I still think that there is love out there.

Then again, I find myself in situations that compromise my ability to think. Especially in relationships. Which is in my opinion, quite often. I give in way too quickly, I make irrational decisions sometimes even I am baffled by but I put it down to my love for that person. I want to go all out to please that person, to make sure that that person is happy.. but I forget about my own happiness and more often than not I end up being the unhappy one because I am not fulfilled personally and emotionally.

So again it boils down to circumstances. What can we do with our circumstances?