Looking left and right
Anticipating the arrival
Beads of sweat run down my forehead
Nervousness overpowers sensibility
Entirety seems forever
Awkwardness in full reality
There must be reassurance
somewhere
How did it go missing...
Damn the uneasiness
Squandering off with uncertainty
Reversing risk, implausible
Seeking completeness in unknown waters
be still, little heart, be still
Thou deserve more than just...
Stay true, little heart, stay true
Strength, adversity and determination
Will see you through
Wednesday 29 February 2012
Daydream
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I stare out the window
I look beyond the horizon
My mind is playing a thousand films
Like stills on a movie reel
I wonder what is out there
My memories of yonder
Eclectically mysterious
Yet beautifully unforgettable
Solace I seek
As my soul yearns for meaning
Daydreams of sweet reminisce
Quaintly tucked away, in a bliss
Silhouettes of the future
Faintly acting out its fate
So splendidly displayed
Like a sensuous cup of tea
I'm daydreaming...
...away
My escape into the imagine
I look beyond the horizon
My mind is playing a thousand films
Like stills on a movie reel
I wonder what is out there
My memories of yonder
Eclectically mysterious
Yet beautifully unforgettable
Solace I seek
As my soul yearns for meaning
Daydreams of sweet reminisce
Quaintly tucked away, in a bliss
Silhouettes of the future
Faintly acting out its fate
So splendidly displayed
Like a sensuous cup of tea
I'm daydreaming...
...away
My escape into the imagine
A Caffe Latte...and a Ponder Away
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Sitting in a cafe
Indulging in a Cafe Latte
Watching people come and go
All deep in their own worlds
The little group in the corner
Snickering and laughing
Enjoying each other's company
As though there were no worries in the world
The executive taps on his laptop
While talking on his blue tooth
Sounding seemingly important,
Yet unknowingly pretentious
The lovely old couple
Sitting hand in hand, intertwining their fingers
The lady's head rests dutifully on her husband's shoulder
Years of adoration and care
Never aged either, making them look
like the youngest couple in the room
A young family thrudges in
A set of parents and two toddlers in tow
Wanting to keep peace , but to no avail
One screaming baby and a mischevious kid
You could see the stress on the parents' faces
Yet the love for their children is undeniable
still sipping my caffe latte
continuing to ponder about my next step
contemplating life's adventures
That God has set before me
Indulging in a Cafe Latte
Watching people come and go
All deep in their own worlds
The little group in the corner
Snickering and laughing
Enjoying each other's company
As though there were no worries in the world
The executive taps on his laptop
While talking on his blue tooth
Sounding seemingly important,
Yet unknowingly pretentious
The lovely old couple
Sitting hand in hand, intertwining their fingers
The lady's head rests dutifully on her husband's shoulder
Years of adoration and care
Never aged either, making them look
like the youngest couple in the room
A young family thrudges in
A set of parents and two toddlers in tow
Wanting to keep peace , but to no avail
One screaming baby and a mischevious kid
You could see the stress on the parents' faces
Yet the love for their children is undeniable
still sipping my caffe latte
continuing to ponder about my next step
contemplating life's adventures
That God has set before me
Tuesday 28 February 2012
Making peace...
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Can we ever see past the trials
Can we ever overcome the tribulations
Are we set to live life that others have mapped out
Not knowing whether we'd ever be more than just...
Can we unlearn what we've learnt?
Can we un-experience what we've gone through?
Do we want to be someone else in the meantime?
Just so we don't feel used...
Just so we don't feel hurt...
Just so we don't cry anymore...
But perhaps it is best to go through it...
To feel like life isn't as easy as it seems
To face it with your head screwed on...
maybe not so tight but a little loose ..
...and a bit tilted to the side...
Who knows what may come
In the next second, minute, hour or day
Do we smile, laugh, frown or sob
Do we whine, enjoy, rebel or just plain sulk
I wouldn't know...do you?
We mope about the bad things
As if the world revolves us little beings
When there is more to look forward to
Then just the simple problems we make them out to be
Being at peace with ourselves
is probably more important
than barking at the neighbour...
or the driver who doesn't seem to know what he's doing
Because if we don't love ourselves first
We can never properly love those around us
Can we ever overcome the tribulations
Are we set to live life that others have mapped out
Not knowing whether we'd ever be more than just...
Can we unlearn what we've learnt?
Can we un-experience what we've gone through?
Do we want to be someone else in the meantime?
Just so we don't feel used...
Just so we don't feel hurt...
Just so we don't cry anymore...
But perhaps it is best to go through it...
To feel like life isn't as easy as it seems
To face it with your head screwed on...
maybe not so tight but a little loose ..
...and a bit tilted to the side...
Who knows what may come
In the next second, minute, hour or day
Do we smile, laugh, frown or sob
Do we whine, enjoy, rebel or just plain sulk
I wouldn't know...do you?
We mope about the bad things
As if the world revolves us little beings
When there is more to look forward to
Then just the simple problems we make them out to be
Being at peace with ourselves
is probably more important
than barking at the neighbour...
or the driver who doesn't seem to know what he's doing
Because if we don't love ourselves first
We can never properly love those around us
Wednesday 22 February 2012
Knock Knock...
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Who's there?
Me!
Who's me?
You know... me!
Yeah, I know...you said that it's you...but who's you?
You should know by now who I am...
How would I know who you are
I'm you...
No way!
Yes way!
How so?
Just because...
No reason?
yeap...absolutely!
That can't be...
why not?
No need to have one...
that can't be!
There is no need for one...
Are you sure?
Pretty much!
I don't believe you.
Well..you gotta...
why should I?
Because I am you?
Where's the proof?
Why should there be?
I don't know...you tell me?
I'm asking you...
oh come on!!!
Don't argue...just accept.
I am not...I just want proof!
You don't need proof...just believe...
Me!
Who's me?
You know... me!
Yeah, I know...you said that it's you...but who's you?
You should know by now who I am...
How would I know who you are
I'm you...
No way!
Yes way!
How so?
Just because...
No reason?
yeap...absolutely!
That can't be...
why not?
No need to have one...
that can't be!
There is no need for one...
Are you sure?
Pretty much!
I don't believe you.
Well..you gotta...
why should I?
Because I am you?
Where's the proof?
Why should there be?
I don't know...you tell me?
I'm asking you...
oh come on!!!
Don't argue...just accept.
I am not...I just want proof!
You don't need proof...just believe...
Tuesday 31 January 2012
Experiencing life once more...
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Do I necessarily know what exactly I am to do when going through life's wonders each time? Not really...I wing it mostly...
Hahahaha!!!!
Hahahaha!!!!
Wednesday 25 January 2012
the beauty...
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...of knowing that something good will happen this year is always a pick me up. I believe in the truest of self, that come what may, I will be having the time of my life this year.
I should say that I have made a lot of decisions this year, some very life changing. I must stress that these life changing decisions could ultimately make or break my future in the very many pursuits that I have set forth.
My proudest moment, even though I have only been blogging more frequently in the last month or so would be to find like minded individuals who believe my blogposts are worth following coming from the likes of the Great British Chefs. And hopefully in turn would turn the heads of other chefs to see whether I'm worth my money or not.
I've signed up for a cooking competition that I will only know whether I qualify this summer. I've become more robust in my baking enthusiasm exploring unique combinations that perhaps London has yet to explore. I am waiting for another baking competition to open its doors so I can sign up for that one.
And in any case, if those don't happen...it is ok... I still enjoy cooking, I still enjoy baking...tremendously. It has helped me therapeutically to pick myself up and explore myself once again. Mind you, I don't actually eat a lot of it either. Hahahaha... but if the given opportunity I'd definitely love to represent proper Malaysian cuisine in the light that so many people are beginning to enjoy it.
So here goes!
Innovative baker...
I should say that I have made a lot of decisions this year, some very life changing. I must stress that these life changing decisions could ultimately make or break my future in the very many pursuits that I have set forth.
My proudest moment, even though I have only been blogging more frequently in the last month or so would be to find like minded individuals who believe my blogposts are worth following coming from the likes of the Great British Chefs. And hopefully in turn would turn the heads of other chefs to see whether I'm worth my money or not.
I've signed up for a cooking competition that I will only know whether I qualify this summer. I've become more robust in my baking enthusiasm exploring unique combinations that perhaps London has yet to explore. I am waiting for another baking competition to open its doors so I can sign up for that one.
And in any case, if those don't happen...it is ok... I still enjoy cooking, I still enjoy baking...tremendously. It has helped me therapeutically to pick myself up and explore myself once again. Mind you, I don't actually eat a lot of it either. Hahahaha... but if the given opportunity I'd definitely love to represent proper Malaysian cuisine in the light that so many people are beginning to enjoy it.
So here goes!
Innovative baker...
Thursday 5 January 2012
Don't always know what I'm doing...
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Yeap... 2012 is here and I'm pretty lost. Yeap... Sounds pretty strange for a person who's always had her life planned out to a T!!! But sometimes I lose direction, I wallow in too many things that I shouldn't be wallowing in, or thinking negatively for too long. It is quite something to have to sometimes take heed from the least likeliest of people to realise what a sorry case I've become just because something didn't pan out.
I've delayed writing my cookbook because I lost inspiration despite cooking and having a dysfunctional camera doesn't help either. I've put on hold plans to do a ton of things because... Well just because. No particular reason at all. I don't know why I do it but I just do.
I reflect back on 2011 and I see a troubled soul even though I've had my achievements. I don't know how to let go. I don't know when to let go. Perhaps when intuition plays such a huge part, I end up being a dushbag... Not entirely wanting to let go. But I need to seriously stop feeling sorry for myself. Pick myself up and just leap ahead in life. To be happy again. To write properly once more. To get ahead in my cooking. To pursue Masterchef perhaps. You never know...
I still don't know what I have in store for myself but with perseverance, strength, hard work, determination and a dosage of happiness, perhaps 2012 will be a good year after all.
I've delayed writing my cookbook because I lost inspiration despite cooking and having a dysfunctional camera doesn't help either. I've put on hold plans to do a ton of things because... Well just because. No particular reason at all. I don't know why I do it but I just do.
I reflect back on 2011 and I see a troubled soul even though I've had my achievements. I don't know how to let go. I don't know when to let go. Perhaps when intuition plays such a huge part, I end up being a dushbag... Not entirely wanting to let go. But I need to seriously stop feeling sorry for myself. Pick myself up and just leap ahead in life. To be happy again. To write properly once more. To get ahead in my cooking. To pursue Masterchef perhaps. You never know...
I still don't know what I have in store for myself but with perseverance, strength, hard work, determination and a dosage of happiness, perhaps 2012 will be a good year after all.
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