Adapting....

To life once more. Not that I've forgotten how to live but just living life as I should. Not having to wonder what other people are thinking but rather just living and enjoying the moment.

I've always thought I am living the life but things don't quite always pan out. But here I am, in my own place now and making the most of it.

Having just finished most of the wedding cake I was asked to bake, I feel a sense of achievement. To be given that opportunity to make an impression or just to give the happy couple that chance to have a beautiful wedding with a great tasting cake. And I dare say, I've made a beautiful cake. Nothing like what the professionals are like, but beautiful nonetheless.

But where am I going with this? I'm adapting my life to what I want it to be. Working at a challenging job on a topic that people seldom address unless confronted with, baking for the joy of it and when the time arises, get paid for it as well, and enjoying the comforts of living on my own.

I won't say whether I miss certain other things and people but who knows. Some things are better left unsaid.

Lyrics - Wherever you will go by Charlene Soraia

Am a big fan of this london based singer... so here's her lyrics...simple but straight to the point!


So lately, been wondering 
Who will be there to take my place
When i’m gone, you’ll need love
To light the shadows on your face
If a great wave shall fall
It would fall upon us all
And between the sand and stone 
Could you make it on your own?

Chorus:
If i could, then i would 
I’ll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I’ll go wherever you will go

And maybe i’ll work out 
A way to make it back some day 
*Towards you*, to guide you 
Through the darkest of your days

If a great wave shall fall
It would fall upon us all
Well i hope there’s someone out there 
Who can bring me back to you 

Chorus:
If i could, then i would 
I’ll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
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I’ll go wherever you will go

Run away with my heart 
Run away with my hope
run away with my love

i know now, just quite how 
my life and love might still go on 
in your heart, in your mind
i’ll stay with you for all of time

[Chorus:]
If i could then i would 
I’ll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go
If i could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go
If i could turn back time 
I’ll go wherever you will go 
I’ll go wherever you will go 

anxious

somehow I get pangs of anxiety at the weirdest of times and these feelings aren't normally spawned from thinking too much or feeling utterly emotional, but the fact that what comes after feeling anxious normally becomes a fact is pretty strange.

I'm not sure whether it is because I am anticipating something will happen, or am just displacing the facts of past experiences, thus making me feel anxious!

now I sound like a broken down record...

writing...

Would it be considered strange, odd, weird, downright crazy if you start writing your feelings down on how much you miss being with the other. How you reminisce about the times you had together...

is that insane? or just writing your heart?

doesn't matter whether it's in a form of a letter, a note, a postcard, or just a one-liner on a piece of paper to say...

I love you
I hate you
I miss you
I want you
I need you